This little gap-toothed firecracker of a kiddo starts first grade next week. We've always approached homeschooling/unschooling/schooling in general on a year by year and child by child basis, starting (oh gosh) twelve years ago now. With a few family members who trail-blazed before us, we were drawn to unschooling while I was still pregnant with Calvin. That was -and has been - a beautiful experience for us, though change has always been constant. Some children and some years required more structure and curriculum. Others did not. Constantly re-evaluating and shifting gears when needed was the constant, I suppose, as well as always, always trying to create a world around them rich in experience and opportunity. It's been a path full of pride, love, doubt, and so much more. I don't see that changing.
Anyway, I could go on and on, and forgive me, but I likely will over the next few weeks as I continue to process all of this exciting an change (and celebrate what remains the same). But for now, I simply wanted to tell you that my littlest babe will be the first and the only of the lot of them to attend school from, well, almost the beginning. If you knew her - and you do ever so slightly from reading along here surely - you'd know just how perfectly suited she is to this situation. And you wouldn't be surprised to hear that she's been counting down the days until the first day. When the decision was finally made last winter, her immediate response was pure wide-eyed excitement - "I'm going to have SO MANY FRIENDS, and learn SO MANY THINGS!" That's my girl. And it's true, somehow before the year has begun, the entire class is full of her friends. I love this girl. The only extrovert in a Soule sea of Introverts. I can't wait to see her soar.
And so next week, she'll hop in the car with her older brother to start attending the same Waldorf School he is finishing up at this year. First and twelfth grade - my bookend babies. There is a tradition in the Waldorf schools of a Wildflower Ceremony on the first day, upon which seniors and first graders are paired and all sorts of beautiful things commence involving flowers and words of wisdom. I KNOW, right??? I think I started getting tearful about that in February. In fact, I'm trying to let those tears roll so that perhaps on the day of, I can control it enough to not bring embarrassment to my children. Though, credit to my seventeen year old, my tendency towards getting a little tearful at every event long stopped embarrassing him and now is just legend and a source of humor amongst he and his friends, who look back at me at school functions to see how long it is before I start. I'll take it. I deserve it. (And I am NOT the only one. Just saying.)
My coping mechanism for change is to reach for the familiar as a grounding rod. I'm sure it's no surprise to you that I've been up sewing each night. Not knitting, because that takes too long and at this point, I'm going for fast and wearable results. I have a slew of new patterns to try, and I'll probably get to those soon. But instead I've been reaching for my favorites. Really, when I look back, in my mind, at both Adelaide and Annabel as young girls (which Ani still is, thankfully), most often in the picture in my mind, they are wearing a Susanne dress. I've made so many of these over the years, and it only seems fitting that she start out a new school year with a fresh pile of them. This dress and a pair of leggings really is the ultimate in comfort for playing, which surely she'll be doing lots of in the coming year.
She stumbled on me making this one yesterday, and talked me into letting her wear it now. She promptly wore it in the pasture to say hello to the sheep, then wore it while she collected eggs in the muddy chicken coop, and then back into the kitchen where she made herself scrambled eggs and added a little maple syrup to her yogurt. It is, as it should be, rather filthy now. And that, too, is just how I always picture this favorite dress.